Year in review

Thank God 2008 is over! This was by far one of the hardest years I have ever had, mentally and physically. The year started out with me having to have pre-cancerous cells removed. The procedure was painful and awful, and I had further complications from it, and ended up in the ER.


Then I started having severe chest pain and it was debilitating....worse then labor pains. My Dr. thought it was just GERD , which is an awful thing to have. Turns out that was not what it was. Around this time I also started having mild vertigo and other random weird symptoms. I had so many tests done. I even ate a radio-active egg sandwich. They could not figure out what was wrong with me, it took them months to figure it out. Not knowing what is physically wrong with you is a sure fire way to make a bi-polar person absolutely crazy. I started having panic attacks and googled everything possible trying to self diagnose myself. The Dr.s finally concluded that I had gallstones (causing the chest pain) so I needed to have my gallbladder removed. During the MRI they found a large mass as well. Turned out I had a tumor on my adrenal gland. It was about the size of a lemon...much larger then my adrenal gland. So I had my adrenal gland and the tumor removed. The tumor was benign. Just the notion that it could have been cancer scared me straight. This really taught me so many things. My bi-polar self realized I am not immortal! I could die at any given moment. Why this hadn't occurred to me yet....I don't know, I guess its that magical thinking they talk about.

So I gained a huge respect for my health and started taking better care of myself and went from

I went from a size 20 to a 6. I eat right and exercise regularly. I didn't want to die someday from weight related complications and have my children know that I failed them, just because I was too lazy to get off my big ass. Life is too short, make the most of the time you have here.