Wednesday, July 29, 2009

If I Were Not Me…..

If only for a day, I would transport myself to a place where the weather is perfect. Warm, with a slight breeze, and I would cruise with my windows down, and listen to music that holds nostalgia for me. I would sing until my voice ached. 

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If I were not me, I would find a beach with crystal clear water, dig my toes into the sand, and chug sip 5 pina colada’s. I would soak up the sun, and not worry about the repercussions, and carry the suns warmth with me on my skin through out the day.

If I were not me, everyone would listen when I spoke, and they would take heed to my advice, and praise me for my insight.

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If I were not me, my mind would be calm, it wouldn’t race to a non existent finish line. I would know inner peace, and I would fall asleep as my head hit the pillow.

If I were not me, I would only be concerned with the well being of myself. I would have shaved legs, manicured fingers and toes, a firm body, and long beautiful flowing hair.

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If I were not me, my biggest concerns in life would be miniscule, like whether or not I have enough toilet paper at home. Or if a pair of jeans makes my butt look big.

If I were not me , I would breathe even steady breaths, my stomach would would be free of knots, and my heart free of weight.

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But…… if I were not me, I would never know that my mind and my heart are far more resilient than I ever could have dreamt.

I would never know that I could love someone so much it can drive me to tears, stomach knots, and a heavy heart. 

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I would never have those racing thoughts that sometimes lead to really great, really creative notions.

I would never know that I am capable of things far greater than I ever expected.

I would never know that 3 boys could change my whole existence. That 3 boys could make me a better, stronger, braver person.

 

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I would never learn the valuable life lessons I have learned, and am still learning. I would never be able to share those lessons with you.

Most of all though, I would never know love like I do now. 

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Life has never come easy to me, and sometimes I like to dream how it could have been different, but regardless, I wouldn’t change a thing.

Still, its nice to dream from time to time.




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95 comments:

  1. This is beyond beautiful.
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  2. Stopping in from SITS to say hi!

    This is really beautiful - it's almost freeing to realize that true satisfaction comes from the unperfect. God Bless!
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  3. Allowing the dreams is part of accepting all of you --- wow, what a beautiful post! Love is all we need.
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  5. this is so true Beth in many many ways. But it is the tough times that make us stronger and make us who we are. Without them it's scary to think where else we would be :) I think butterfly cuppies would be adorable. You have inspired me!
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  6. This is a beautiful post. Thank you for sharing. A million hugs for you!
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  7. I love this post...a great thing to read first thing in the morning (what? yeah its 10:45..but i work a half day today and let the kids sleep as laaate as they wanted...lol) Really can hit all of us in the ticker, lots of hugs your way.
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  8. god, this is beautifully written. absolutely beautiful.
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  9. Very sweet post. And so thoughtfully written. (((HUGS)))
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  10. I don't think I have ever left a comment on your post before but I have been following your blog for a while now. I just wanted to tell you that I thought your post was beautiful. I also have three boys and my youngest is a special needs. Thanks you for your inspiration to others.
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  11. That was really beautiful Beth! What a great reminder to us all!
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  12. What a wonderful post. I always dream and it doesn't hurt a thing:)
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  14. I love it. Thanks for writing.
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  15. Beautiful.

    Have an absolute fab SITs day!
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  16. They say what doesn't kill us makes us stronger!

    Have a great SITS day.

    LBM x
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  18. So well written. This is the kind of thing that should be published in women's magazines.

    Congrats on your SITS day!
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  19. Oh what a beautiful post. Thanks. Happy SITS day.
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  20. Beautifully written. Thanks for sharing!
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  21. That was beautiful. Happy SITS day.
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  22. Beautiful, touching post.
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  25. What a lovely and heart felt post. You've given us a lot to thing about.
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  26. Beautifully written. Happy SITS Day!
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  27. Beautiful post and oh so true!
    Happy SITS Day!
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  28. What a beautiful post. Thank you for sharing those thoughts with all of us!
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  29. That is so beautiful. Thank you for that. We all can identify.
    visiting from SITS.

    sweetjeanette.blogspot.com
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  30. Beautifully posted. Thank you for sharing.
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  31. It's always interesting to go down this path. There's always an aspect of greener grass somewhere, but then we usually all decide our grass is pretty tasty in the end anyway.
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  32. I know you don't see yourself as very brave, mostly because you're looking at yourself from the inside fraught with insecurity but from out here you look like an inspiration. Not because you've got it all figured out in life but because your embracing the most out of the life that you have been given.

    I'm glad you're you, it helps me be me.

    BlogBaby's BabyMama
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  33. Happy to look at these again, such beautiful posts. Hope you have a fantastic SITS day! ;-)
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  34. Stopping in from SITS...Great post!
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  35. An easy life may not be as fulfilling. Or so incredibly complete. Easy days are a wonderful break in it all, though. I love easy days, but wouldn't trade the rest for the world.
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  36. How true! I can totally relate to day dreaming about being transported somewhere else, some place simpler, if even for a few minutes!
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  37. Simply beautiful!

    Happy SITSday!
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  39. Beautiful. I'm one of the lucky ones--I think life has come somewhat easy to me compared to others (but it's still a fulfilling life:)). This is a great reminder to count my blessings!
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  40. Absolutely beautiful. THank you.
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  41. so true. beautifully written.

    happy sits day! :o)
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  42. very nicely said...i think you found some good words to say what a lot of moms feel every day.
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  43. What an awesome post. You have a wonderful way with words. Visiting via SITS.
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  44. Wow! Very well written. I think we all have similar thoughts sometimes. I like to think, learn from the past don't regret it.
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  45. stopping by from stits! This is a beautifuly written post!
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  47. you have a lovely family...stopping by from SITS!
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  48. Very sweet post. Happy Sits day!!
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  49. This is a stunning post. It touched me a great deal. Thank you.
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  50. I read a quote somewhere (I can't remember who said it), but the quote is "Those who don't know how to cry with their whole heart don't know how to laugh, either." This made me think of it.
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  51. you made me cry. and I don't cry easily. you are an amazing spirit! I am grabbing your button for my blog so that I will remember to think and pray for your baby!
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  52. Hi from SITS. Thanks so much for reminding us how to dream of what could have been and thankful for what is.
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  53. Wonderful post. Lots of hope, positive thoughts and hugs sent your way!
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  54. We share the same wish list.
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  55. reading your blog today has inspired me so much as a woman of faith and a new mommy. to be able to say that you wouldn't change your life in spite of all the trials and tribulations is a true sign of strength. i believe that God hand-picks the mommies for every precious baby He sends to Earth. your boys are lucky to have you!
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  56. It is always nice to dream. What a great post! Happy SITS Day!!
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  58. Just beautiful. Happy SITS Day!!
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  60. This is a very moving post - but I keep coming back to "my legs would be shaved!" LOL! I feel ya!
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  61. Another beautiful post...I second you on the pina coladas...and the love.
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  62. So well said. I think you speak for all the moms out there!
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  63. lovely post and very insightful. It's good to embrace the strengths of character you've gained by not always having the easy path. You're fortunate you can recognize that. :)

    Happy SITS day.
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  64. If I were not me I would drink Pina Coladas with you.
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  65. Sometimes a step away from our life, even just in our minds, helps bring us back to reality and the wonder it contains despite the troubles.
    SITS girl
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  66. This is beautifully and honestly written! I tweeted it out for all of my tweets to read too. Keep up the good bloggin'!
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  67. You are indeed strong, and you will be rewarded for that strength. I have often had nothing but my strength and perseverance to keep me going and I thank God for it.
    (((Hugs)))
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  69. This is an awesome post! Each time I start kvetching about my body, my bills, my life I look at my daughter, my family, my teeny tiny blessings and smile...
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  70. This is so touching, I'm so glad you decided to share with us. Congrats on your feature, enjoy your special day!

    Norine
    Don't Put Lizards In Your Ears
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  71. Happy SITS Day!

    What a beautiful post! Thank you for your lovely poem.
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  72. Very heartfelt and inspiring. And challenging. Thanks for sharing. Saying hi from SITS
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  73. Thank you for sharing and reminding us all to be grateful. Have a great SITS day.
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  74. Very beautifully put. You have such a way with words. Everyone deserves to dream sometimes!

    Happy SITS day.
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  75. This is such a beautiful and inspiring post.

    I've visited your blog before, but this time I am coming from SITS. Hugs and prayers for your sweet little boy. :)
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  76. This is such a beautiful post -it brought me to tears
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  77. Very wonderfully put. I think everyone out there needs to be able to escape sometimes - but yes, it is nice to come back down to earth & realize what you really have and how blessed we truly are despite hard times. Enjoy your day in the SITS spotlight.
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  78. Stopped by from SITS...lovely post. x
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  79. You are so talented - enjoy your day!

    Kristin
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  81. This is beautiful! And so true. And dang do I feel horrible for complaining about how difficult my son has been today.

    And you know what?

    You butt looks awesome in those jeans in that picture you posted!
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  82. I'm glad you're you. The world already has Susie and Annie. They need a Manic Mommy because that's who you are. If that makes sense (sorry -- I just had wine!)
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  83. Such a beautiful post! I really love it, you are so talented!

    Happy SITS day! :)
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  84. Wonderful post. Congratulations on being a featured blogger.

    Stopping by from SITS

    http://fabulousgccandles.blogspot.com/2009/08/why-gold-canyons-candles-are-best.html
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  85. You should always follow your dreams. I really liked this post it made me think.
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  86. What a beautiful post.

    We cannot appreciate the good things without experiencing the bad.


    Happy SITS day!
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  87. You are you. And you are good...
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  88. Beautiful. Really makes me stop and appreciate the small things.
    Happy SITS day.
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  89. Happy SITS day!

    This is a wonderful post -- I get stuck on that beginning train of thought every once in a while, so it's nice to see someone move past that to something greater.
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  90. What a beautiful post.
    Congrats on your special day
    xo
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  91. Great thoughts expressed here--I like it! First time visitor to your blog from SITS.
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  92. What a beautiful post. Happy SITS day.
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  93. Great post, heartfelt and sweet thanks for sharing.
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  95. I know this is an old old post and I stumbled upon it. I am hoping to borrow it for today. It's something that I "need."
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