you.

there are so many little things about you Judah that I am trying to permanently engrain in my memory…

the little piggy noises you make. the way you rub your hands together when you eat. your hiccups.

how i can’t tell where your eyebrows end and your hairline begins.

your milk drunk smiles.

your tiny little feet, with ten perfect little pink toes. your long fingers.

the smell of the top of your head. your peach fuzz soft hair.

how i didn’t know whether to cry or laugh when i first saw you, i was so overcome with emotions, in such an amazing way.

the way you furrow your eyebrows and flare your nostrils while you sleep.

your perfect little cherub lips. your teeny tiny ears.

how you much you need me.

but mostly i don’t want to forget the way you made me feel. how with your birth you reaffirmed for me what i knew all along.

this is what i was meant to do. i was meant to be a mom. a mom to three sweet boys.

thank you.